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[oorah]

𝓜𝓻. 𝓜𝓪𝔂𝓸𝓻

𝖙𝖊𝖝𝖙, 𝖛𝖎𝖉𝖊𝖔 (𝔲𝔫;𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖉𝖔𝖌)

𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 (𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖘𝖆𝖋𝖊 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖘𝖊)

𝖋𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖈𝖑𝖚𝖇 𝖛𝖕 (𝔰𝔞𝔣𝔢 𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔤𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔤𝔢)

𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊𝕮𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝕶𝖔𝖚𝖙 (𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔦𝔬𝔯)

𝖔𝖈𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 (𝖘𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖍 𝖙𝖊𝖈𝖍 : ₁₀₋₃ | 𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖗𝖔𝖑 : ₁₁₋₇ | 𝖋𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖕)

𝖛𝖔𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖗 (𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔬𝔫, 𝔠𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔦𝔠, 𝔥𝔬𝔰𝔭𝔦𝔱𝔞𝔩)

Comments

[nishizono]

okay but why not
wouldn't that be more
i don't know

more simple, i guess

i don't know anything about this

[oorah]

it would be
but that's not how it works
it's just something you know when the time is right
it's normal to be confused until then

the best things in life don't come free
just remember that

[nishizono]

[ this sounds like a lot of work, but he gets it. he doesn't understand it, but he gets it. ]

you've gone through it, right?
is it worth it?
being in love

[oorah]

[ it's a loaded question, especially for frank. but it's like when maria asked him where his home was - no matter his flaws he'd always answer with her. he'd always answer yes. he'd always wish he was with her and his two beautiful babies, even when he'd made a semblance of a life in this dismal place. ]

yes it's worth it.
nothing else is more worth it
take it from someone who lost it all

[nishizono]

i'm sorry.

[ he means it. he means it despite not knowing what it's like, because he's only ever had one person in his life that was worth sacrificing for and tetora had always known they weren't meant for a life where they could mean something. it doesn't mean he hasn't learned to empathize since then. ]

[oorah]

i know
but that's not how it usually goes
you deserve to be happy, tetora.

[nishizono]

i don't know if i'll even recognize happiness the way you've felt it
some people aren't built for it
i'm not trying to get pity here, okay
it's just

i don't know what it is
i've only ever been angry all my life

[oorah]

you and me aren't so different
i know you know that
just don't close that door ok?
you might surprise yourself.

[nishizono]

i can promise that i won't.

i do have a question though
and don't laugh or anything
this is really confusing

what do you when you like two people a lot?

[oorah]

i wouldn't laugh at you
even if it wouldn't literally kill me

don't rush into anything
you're at an age where a lot of things might seem like a good idea
reckless things
try to cool it a little, think with a level head.
if you have one of those under there somewhere

[nishizono]

level head
me
i'd sooner give head than have one

[ yeah he's just gonna drag both hands down his face right now ]

arya's a lot like me
she stabs people really well
i like her a lot

but i also like nill
she makes me feel like i'm choking
which is probably a bad thing?

this is weird

[oorah]

it's okay to like people
it doesn't always mean you have feelings for them
sometimes it does
it's supposed to be confusing ok
choking isn't always bad either

i'm glad you can talk to me about this stuff

[nishizono]

i'm glad i can talk to you about these things too

i want to hold their hands
i rarely ever want to hold hands with people

i don't feel disgusted about myself when i think about them

[oorah]

that's all good stuff

you wanna come over later?

[nishizono]

yeah! i want to
i have some stuff to give you guys too

can i stay overnight?

[oorah]

you didn't have to get us anything
you're always welcome though you know that
we're making a giant pillow fort if you want in

[nishizono]

do i have to sleep next to strangers
i can sleep on the floor next to your bed


or not, if you and mom are gonna get down with

[oorah]

it's just us
there's no one who would be sleeping over you wouldn't know anyway
but i wouldn't invite you if there were already people here

[ he wants one on one time with his knifeson okAY ]

[nishizono]

[ you're making him really excited for the prospect of SLEEP ]

are we gonna fight in the fort
are we gonna wrestle
i think i can take you now

[oorah]

it's not a fighting fort
i mean i guess unless you want it to be
can we wrestle tomorrow i'm tired

[nishizono]

it can definitely be a fighting fort okay
it'll muffle the sound too since there's a lot of cotton to go around

we could nap together
you're big and warm
i'm small and cold

[oorah]

[ it hurts a ridiculous amount but he doesn't let on as ever. ]

sure

[nishizono]

[ papa no why are you like this ]

i'll pack my bag and come over now
don't die from now until then

[oorah]

i promise

[nishizono]

i'm holding you to it