[ she regrets asking more than she regrets pushing them too far, too fast. Piece of shit. clumps of words get stuck to the sides of her skull: made love, long haul, we were vicious. one woman. Jess stares ahead, at her hands initially, then her gaze becomes tetherless, settled on nothing. "nothing" is the word contained at the centre of her brain, going off quietly with every beat of her pulse.
nothing he says has any bearing on her. it's selfish to slake blame for the choice he made in accepting his feelings for her. it's psychotic to think about herself when he's confessing his fears to her. it's hypocritical when they're of losing control of what goes on in his mind. when he's in bed with her. ]
I'm sorry. [ Jess looks over to the blinds, turning her head imperceptibly away from him. out there somewhere is that truth-seeking strawberry blonde or any number of women with whom things could be simpler, no matter what he thinks. Her chest constricts and she steadies her breath as silently as possible. she shouldn't have asked, though she doesn't know what else she would have said. she can't make it better, can't get outside herself long enough to help him. she shouldn't be saying anything now, either. what's an apology worth from Jessica Jones? nothing. ]
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nothing he says has any bearing on her. it's selfish to slake blame for the choice he made in accepting his feelings for her. it's psychotic to think about herself when he's confessing his fears to her. it's hypocritical when they're of losing control of what goes on in his mind. when he's in bed with her. ]
I'm sorry. [ Jess looks over to the blinds, turning her head imperceptibly away from him. out there somewhere is that truth-seeking strawberry blonde or any number of women with whom things could be simpler, no matter what he thinks. Her chest constricts and she steadies her breath as silently as possible. she shouldn't have asked, though she doesn't know what else she would have said. she can't make it better, can't get outside herself long enough to help him. she shouldn't be saying anything now, either. what's an apology worth from Jessica Jones? nothing. ]