[ his heart pounds fast against his chest, knowing she'll feel it when she presses her hand there. but he's grateful for the distance, even when the eye contact feels like an assault, her eyes crashing into his before he can even think to put defenses up. frank wets his lips and forces himself to look at her, too, though his gaze is less solid by design. ]
I don't want to... [ hook up. it sounds so juvenile. he can't force the phrase past his lips. can't he just go back to holding her and pretend it doesn't mean anything despite the way his heartbeat quickens impossibly even now? ] With you.
[ which sounded less like a rejection in his head, and now he just looks perplexed by the way it had come out. he shakes his head, trying to walk it back, but he isn't sure how to replace the words when they're true to a fault. ]
Sorry, nevermind. I know you don't care. [ about me. he didn't want her to, did he? he feels stupid, like when he played that song in the park and maria had heard. he cares what she thinks of him, he always has. one hand has slid to the small of her back, keeping her from slipping, or at least that's his convenient excuse for the proprietary tinge the action holds. ]
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I don't want to... [ hook up. it sounds so juvenile. he can't force the phrase past his lips. can't he just go back to holding her and pretend it doesn't mean anything despite the way his heartbeat quickens impossibly even now? ] With you.
[ which sounded less like a rejection in his head, and now he just looks perplexed by the way it had come out. he shakes his head, trying to walk it back, but he isn't sure how to replace the words when they're true to a fault. ]
Sorry, nevermind. I know you don't care. [ about me. he didn't want her to, did he? he feels stupid, like when he played that song in the park and maria had heard. he cares what she thinks of him, he always has. one hand has slid to the small of her back, keeping her from slipping, or at least that's his convenient excuse for the proprietary tinge the action holds. ]